Archives – Page 8

Archives – Page 8
Journal entries dated February 5, 2010 to March 23, 2010
(Posts published 7/7/10 to 9/14/10)

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Post #351: February 5, 2010 – 9pm
(Posted to the blog on 7/7/10)
Melting down – 9pm: Most of all, I need to be heard

Post #352: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 7/8/10)
Spotlight – Kerro’s Korner: Spotlight on a great blog

Post #353: February 6, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/9/10)
The meltdown exposes gold: I feel a physical and spiritual shift in my body

Post #354: February 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/12/10)
We speak the truth: What it means to hold my parents responsible

Post #355: February 14, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/13/10)
Too horrific to put into words: A nightmare leaves me unable to journal

Post #356: February 15, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/14/10)
Hopeful thinking: What if I set aside what I know to be true about men?

Post #357: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 7/15/10)
Reader Input – Motivation for change: Under what circumstances should a person not be held responsible for not doing better?

Post #358: February 16, 2010 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 7/16/10)
Finding my voice – Part 1: I’m not blaming my therapist for my lifetime of experiences or all my bottled up emotions

Post #359: February 16, 2010 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 7/19/10)
Finding my voice – Part 2: My therapist’s behavior is hurtful in a number of ways

Post #360: February 16, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 7/20/10)
Finding my voice – Part 3: I need my therapist to be a witness to what I need to say and do without making it about himself

Post #361: February 16, 2010 – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 7/21/10)
Finding my voice – Part 4: Most of all, I need to be heard

Post #362: February 16, 2010 – Part 5
(Posted to the blog on 7/22/10)
Finding my voice – Part 5: All the reasons I keep trying to make it work with Mark

Post #363: February 17, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/23/10)
Giving language to my terror: I’m finally able to document my dream about rape

Post #364: February 20, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/26/10)
She’s one cool chick: My best friend forgives me for messing up

Post #365: February 22, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/27/10)
A recital in the forecast: Putting together plans for an in-studio student recital

Post #366: GUEST POST
(Posted to the blog on 7/28/10)
Guest Post by Gudrun Frerichs – Avoidance as Self Care? Can the tendency to avoid pain be labeled self care?

Post #367: February 23, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/29/10)
Questionable friendship: A friendship with a married man

Post #368: February 24, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/30/10)
Holding myself accountable: Asking my therapist for support in making wise choices

Post #369: February 27, 2010 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 8/2/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 1: The ways in which Mark responded to my script

Post #370: February 27, 2010 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 8/3/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 2: Asking for an apology

Post #371: February 27, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 8/4/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 3: A pattern of selecting men who are not emotionally available

Post #372: February 27, 2010 – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 8/5/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 4: Complaints about my relationships

Post #373: February 27, 2010 – Part 5
(Posted to the blog on 8/6/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 5: My family doesn’t support me

Post #374: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 8/9/10)
Spotlight: The Gallows Pole: Spotlight on a great blog

Post #375: March 2, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/10/10)
Letting go of the reins: Allowing my therapist to lead the way

Post #376: March 3, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/11/10)
Neurotic enabling: Trying to understand neurotic behavior inevitably fosters enabling

Post #377: March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 8/12/10)
He leads the way – Part 1: The state of my relationships

Post #378: March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 8/13/10)
He leads the way – Part 2: The role men could play in my healing

Post #379: March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 8/16/10)
He leads the way – Part 3: Stupid therapy homework assignments

Post #380: March 4, 2010 – 1:00pm
(Posted to the blog on 8/17/10)
Beginning of the end – 1:00pm: Can my best friend kick your ass?

Post #381: March 4, 2010 – 1:30pm
(Posted to the blog on 8/18/10)
Beginning of the end – 1:30pm: Mark is a narcissistic, stubborn, prideful, lazy, arrogant son-of-a-bitch – and a really bad therapist

Post #382: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 8/19/10)
Reader Input: Give and take: How do you handle the give and take balance within relationships?

Post #383: March 4, 2010 – 2:30pm
(Posted to the blog on 8/20/10)
Beginning of the end – 2:30pm: Starting the search for a new therapist

Post #384: March 4, 2010 – 8:00pm
(Posted to the blog on 8/23/10)
Beginning of the end – 8:00pm: Challenging and shifting the belief I am stuck with poor quality relationships because I can’t do any better

Post #385: March 5, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/24/10)
A few steps in a better direction: Gave Mark his walking papers, setting up interviews with potential therapists

Post #386: GUEST POST
(Posted to the blog on 8/25/10)
Guest Post: Healing Body Shame: Guest post by Margarita Tartakovsky

Post #387: March 6, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/26/10)
A hairy bundle of joy: Introducing my foster kitty

*** ENDED THERAPY (for the second time) WITH THERAPIST #1 (MARK) ***

Post #388: March 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/27/10)
My neatly packaged story: A summary of my story to be given to potential therapists

Post #389: March 8, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/30/10)
Some serious composing: I find other music teachers with similar ideas; Preparing questions to ask potential therapists

Post #390: March 9, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 8/31/10)
And the finalists are . . .: Introducing the potential therapists I plan to interview

Post #391: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 9/1/10)
Spotlight — Blooming Lotus: Spotlight on a great blog

Post #392: March 10, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/2/10)
Introducing Janet: Interview with a potential therapist

Post #393: March 12, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/3/10)
Introducing Katherine: Interview with a potential therapist


Post #394: March 15, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/6/10)
Introducing Steve: Interview with a potential therapist


Post #395: March 15, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/7/10)
Introducing Edward: Interview with a potential therapist

Post #396: March 16, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/8/10)
Introducing Anna: Interview with a potential therapist

Post #397: March 17, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/9/10)
And my choice is . . .: I make a final decision on who will be my new therapist

Post #398: March 18, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/10/10)
Coward’s way out: I confront Mark about his ignoring me

Post #399: March 18, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/13/10)
Going crazy with patterns: Cleaning cutting ties with Mark

************* STARTED THERAPY WITH THERAPIST #3 (EDWARD) *************

Post #400: March 23, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 9/14/10)
Putting a lid on it: Making sense of the discordant ending of my relationship with Mark

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