Archives – Page 7

Archives – Page 7
Journal entries dated January 6, 2010 to February 5, 2010
(Posts published 4/29/10 to 7/6/10)

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Post #302: January 6, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 4/29/10)
Desperate cravings: Searching for a sense of self

Post #303: January 7, 2010 – 5am
(Posted to the blog on 4/30/10)
Secrets won’t be secret anymore: A dream about finally getting to tell my story

Post #304: GUEST POST
(Posted to the blog on 5/3/10)
Guest Post – The Guilt Sentinel: The painful coping mechanism of guilt

Post #305: January 7, 2010 – 3pm – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 5/4/10)
This day finally arrived – Part 1: Trying to get Mark to acknowledge his part in our conflict

Post #306: January 7, 2010 – 3pm – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 5/5/10)
This day finally arrived – Part 2: An uncomfortable mirror exercise

Post #307: January 7, 2010 – 3pm – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 5/6/10)
This day finally arrived – Part 3: A touch exercise triggers a strong body memory

Post #308: January 7, 2010 – 3pm – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 5/7/10)
This day finally arrived – Part 4: The session leaves me with mixed feelings and a bit of confusion

Post #309: January 7, 2010 – 10pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/10/10)
Desire for solace: Will I be able to preserve the sanctity and solace of my studio?


Post #310: January 8, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/11/10)
The old compliance thing: I give myself permission to walk away, if needed

Post #311: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 5/12/10)
Spotlight – Find a Therapist: Spotlight on a great blog

Post #312: January 9, 2010 – morning
(Posted to the blog on 5/13/10)
Self-chatter marathon: Maybe I left my body during the mirror exercise

Post #313: January 9, 2010 – evening
(Posted to the blog on 5/14/10)
Figuring out my own way: I have to accept I won’t ever be understood by Mark

Post #314: January 10, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/17/10)
Heavy powerlessness: Struggling to give myself a voice and to find support in my journey


Post #315: January 11, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/18/10)
A question of bartering: The wisdom of exchanging piano lessons for therapy sessions


Post #316: January 12, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/19/10)
A need to be believed: When I say that the pain is “that bad”, I want people to believe that I’m not exaggerating

Post #317: January 13, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/20/10)
The pain of dealing with people: Everyday interaction with people can be difficult

Post #318: January 17, 2010 – 11am
(Posted to the blog on 5/21/10)
Connecting some dots: Triggered by memories of how my dad disciplined me

Post #319: January 17, 2010 – 8pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/24/10)
Please stop spinning: Feeling overwhelmed by flashbacks and triggering

Post #320: January 18, 2010 – noon
(Posted to the blog on 5/25/10)
Accusations of sabotage: My therapist sends an aggressive email to me


Post #321: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 5/26/10)
Reader Input – Too sensitive? When is a sensitive personality too sensitive?


Post #322: January 18, 2010 – 1pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/27/10)
An attempt at cleaning it up: Trying to explain how I’m not sabotaging our therapy process

Post #323: January 18, 2010 – 2pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/28/10)
Attempts two, three and four: Desperately trying to repair the relationship with my therapist

Post #324: January 18, 2010 – 11pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/31/10)
This must be the end: Maybe I’m capable of only attracting assholes

Post #325: January 19, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/1/10)
No way in hell – well, maybe: I’ll talk to my therapist only if he apologizes

Post #326: GUEST POST
(Posted to the blog on 6/2/10)
Guest Post: Healing to the Root: Settle for nothing less than full healing

Post #327: January 20, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/3/10)
Resigned to reality: The best I can hope for is to understand his postion

Post #328: January 21, 2010 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/4/10)
Session deux – Part 1: Rough start to our second therapy session

Post #329: January 21, 2010 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 6/7/10)
Session deux – Part 2: Uncovering the reason why my therapist keeps violating the religion boundary

Post #330: January 21, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 6/8/10)
Session deux – Part 3: Questioning what it means to dissociate

Post #331: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 6/9/10)
Spotlight – Erin Merryn’s Blog: Spotlight on a great blog

Post #332: January 22, 2010 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/10/10)
Sorting through it all – Part 1: Is it a deal-breaker that my therapist doesn’t believe me?

Post #333: January 22, 2010 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 6/11/10)
Sorting through it all – Part 2: Anger and apologies


Post #334: January 22, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 6/14/10)
Sorting through it all – Part 3: Reasons I wasn’t fully truthful with Mark about my spiritual beliefs

Post #335: January 23, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/15/10)
It shouldn’t be this hard: The pros and cons of continuing with Mark

Post #336: January 24, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/16/10)
Bits and pieces: Dreams, piano lessons and emotional promiscuity

Post #337: January 26, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/17/10)
A lull in the storm: My piano lesson business is growing


Post #338: January 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/18/10)
What I really want: I really want Mark to stop talking and start listening

Post #339: February 2, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/21/10)
If only I could trust: Not being heard


Post #340: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 6/22/10)
Reader Input – For-profit links: Under what conditions are you willing to put for-profit advertising on your blog?

Post #341: February 4, 2010 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/23/10)
Session trois – Part 1: Both Mark and I have tender spots in our psyches

Post #342: February 4, 2010 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 6/24/10)
Session trois – Part 2: Telling the truth and being believed — or not

Post #343: February 4, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 6/25/10)
Session trois – Part 3: Curtailing unnecessary lectures

Post #344: February 4, 2010 – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 6/28/10)
Session trois – Part 4: This therapeutic relationship works because of the conflict

Post #345: February 5, 2010 – noon – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/29/10)
Unlocking the mystery – Part 1: When I get triggered, I lock up

Post #346: February 5, 2010 – noon – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 6/30/10)
Unlocking the mystery – Part 2: Sometimes my therapist responds to my being triggered with skilled supported, sometimes with less effective ways

Post #347: February 5, 2010 – noon – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 7/1/10)
Unlocking the mystery – Part 3: Sometimes my therapist becomes aggressive in response to my being triggered

Post #348: February 5, 2010 – 1pm
(Posted to the blog on 7/2/10)
Melting down – 1pm: I realize he is not going to hear me no matter how hard I try to be heard

Post #349: February 5, 2010 – 5pm
(Posted to the blog on 7/5/10)
Melting down – 5pm: Maybe I’m beyond help

Post #350: February 5, 2010 – 7pm
(Posted to the blog on 7/6/10)
Melting down – 7pm: What if I quit trying to talk to people who aren’t willing to listen?

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