Archives – Page 10

Archives – Page 10
Journal entries dated June 3, 2010 to September 8, 2010
(Posts published 11/24/10 to 1/27/11)

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Post #451: June 3, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 11/24/10)
Being my own parent: Gratitude for empathy in our therapy sessions; I can’t imagine expressing my anger towards my mom

Post #452: June 9, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 11/25/10)
Compassion for myself: Reflecting on the emotions I experienced when Edward expressed anger towards my mom

Post #453: June 10, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 11/26/10)
Protecting my dad: A dream in which I protect my dad from the consequences of his choices

Post #454: June 12, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 11/29/10)
Enlightening conversations: One of my fans helps me understand dissociation; I admit to Edward I’m afraid he’ll think I’m emotionally attached to him

Post #455: June 13, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 11/30/10)
The appropriateness of confrontations: Why I don’t want to tell my mom about being molested

Post #456: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 12/1/10)
Reader Input: Suicidal idealization: It is morally wrong to commit suicide?

Post #457: June 16, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/2/10)
Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 1 of 3: Therapy session on how my relationship with my parents was structured to meet their needs

Post #458: June 16, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/3/10)
Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 2 of 3: My parents did the best they knew to do; I’m not able to express anger

Post #459: June 16, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/6/10)
Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talk about my dad’s death; I wonder why some people move towards healing and others don’t


Post #460: June 23, 2010 – morning
(Posted to the blog on 12/7/10)
It comes in fits and starts: Gratitude for Edward encouraging me to be emotionally connected with him; I ask for help in recovering and making sense of memories


Post #461: June 23, 2010 – evening
(Posted to the blog on 12/8/10)
Just for the record: I become a piano student; I contemplate the morality of suicide


Post #462: June 24, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/9/10)
Speaking of crashes and cats: Recognizing that I often crash emotionally after an emotional high; I consider giving my foster kitty a permanent home with me

Post #463: June 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/10/10)
Loaded for bear – Part 1 of 4: Edward encourages me to talk about childhood abuse as much and as often as needed

Post #464: June 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/13/10)
Loaded for bear – Part 2 of 4: Edward coaches me to remember the emotions I experienced as a child when my dad hit me

Post #465: June 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/14/10)
Loaded for bear – Part 3 of 4: Edward tries to get me to understand how wrong my dad had been; I got triggered and froze up

Post #466: June 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/15/10)
Loaded for bear – Part 4 of 4: Edward helps me get unfrozen; We look at why I don’t feel anger towards my parents; I place a token of emotional connection in Edward’s office

Post #467: July 5, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/16/10)
My mind is playing tricks on me: I struggle with symptoms of dissociation

Post #468: SPOTLIGHT
(Posted to the blog on 12/17/10)
Spotlight: Overcoming Sexual Abuse: A great blog on tools for overcoming and rebuilding after sexual abuse

Post #469: July 14, 2010 – noon
(Posted to the blog on 12/20/10)
Snapshots of me – Part 1 of 3: In our therapy session, Edward assures me that my symptoms of dissociation are not due to malingering

Post #470: July 14, 2010 – noon
(Posted to the blog on 12/21/10)
Snapshots of me – Part 2 of 3: Edward and I look at photos of my family and past adventures

Post #471: July 14, 2010 – noon
(Posted to the blog on 12/22/10)
Snapshots of me – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talked about why I feel the need to protect my mom from pain and from having to take responsibility for her part in the abuse

Post #472: July 14, 2010 – 8:00pm
(Posted to the blog on 12/23/10)
The eleventh-and-a-half hour: My habit of procrastination puts me in a tight spot of not being ready for a performance

Post #473: July 15, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/24/10)
Through the night to dawn: I pull a miracle out of my ass and deliver a powerful performance

Post #474: July 21, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/27/10)
I can only imagine: Sharing my fears around using my blanket in a therapy session

Post #475: July 26, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/28/10)
Tidbits of non-therapy news: My piano lessons business is growing quickly



Post #476: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 12/29/10)
Reader Input: Why do you come here?: What brings you to my blog time and time again?



Post #477: July 28, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/30/10)
Unfolding possibility – Part 1 of 3: Edward and I negotiate how we will handle my dissocating during a session, should that happen

Post #478: July 28, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 12/31/10)
Unfolding possibility – Part 2 of 3: In our therapy session, I get brave enough to go under the blanket


Post #479: July 28, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/1/11)
Unfolding possibility – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talk about how my dad should have protected me instead of inflicting violence on me


Post #480: July 29, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/3/11)
The freedom of no expectations: Gratitude for how safe, validated, heard, seen and respected I feel with Edward


Post #481: August 4, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/4/11)
Innocent questions: Humorous conversation with a client about agricultural stuff

Post #482: August 12, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/5/11)
Thoughtful reflections: Reflecting on how “intact” I feel when I’m with Edward; There were good parts to my childhood

Post #483: August 13, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/6/11)
Curious puzzle pieces: I decide to adopt my foster kitty; The kitty wrecks havoc within the dropped ceiling

Post #484: POST ROUND-UP
(Posted to the blog on 1/7/11)
Post Round-Up: Fresh beginnings: Blog posts that provide tools to help abuse survivors implement healing behaviors

Post #485: August 18, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/8/11)
In search of my voice – Part 1 of 3: I am terrified to expose my true feelings to Edward

Post #486: August 18, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/10/11)
In search of my voice – Part 2 of 3: Edward helps me handle the emotions that come with remembering the physical abuse

Post #487: August 18, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/11/11)
In search of my voice – Part 3 of 3: Edward assures me I’m not being overly dramatic

Post #488: August 23, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/12/11)
An ache to be noticed: I ponder the purpose of the blanket in therapy; Considering what my parents should have done better

Post #489: August 27, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/13/11)
When is a hug just a hug?: I am very uncomfortable when a potential client tells me he is going to hug me

Post #490: MUSIC LESSON
(Posted to the blog on 1/14/11)
Music Lesson: What’s your name?: Associating the letter names with keys on the keyboard


Post #491: August 28, 2010 – morning
(Posted to the blog on 1/15/11)
Please forgive me in advance: My attempt to set boundaries with the potential “hugging” student doesn’t go so well


Post #492: August 28, 2010 – afternoon
(Posted to the blog on 1/17/11)
Just a mere pissant: A second attempt to set boundaries with the “hugging” client


Post #493: August 29, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/18/11)
Those three little words: My boundary setting attempts leave me confused and unsure of myself

Post #494: August 30, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/19/11)
Shared history: My sister and I talk about our shared history of physical abuse from our parents

Post #495: September 3, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/20/11)
Taking it easy on myself: I attempt better self-care habits without tracking my success rates

Post #496: September 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/21/11)
Best Friends Forever – Part 1 of 3: A “girls weekend” with my best friend

Post #497: September 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/22/11)
Best Friends Forever – Part 2 of 3: My best friend and I spend a day in Council Bluffs, Iowa


Post #498: September 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/24/11)
Best Friends Forever – Part 3 of 3: My best friend and I spend a day in De Smet, South Dakota


Post #499: READER INPUT
(Posted to the blog on 1/25/11)
Reader Input: Paranormal experiences: Have you ever experienced the paranormal?



Post #500: September 8, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/26/11)
The power of words – Part 1 of 2: Edward and I discuss how I might handle potential clients who don’t honor boundaries


Post #501: September 8, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 1/27/11)
The power of words – Part 2 of 2: Edward and I start examining what was behind my promiscious behavior in my younger days

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