The following blog posts all touch on the topic of my relationship with my mom:
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March 6, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 1/27/09)
I feel dirty: More on my deepest shame
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April 8, 2008 – Part 6
(Posted to the blog on 2/22/09)
My spiritual journey – Part 6: How I resolved, for myself, the conflict among different religious/spiritual belief structures
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April 10, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/4/09)
Was I was abused but don’t remember?: First inklings surface that I may have been molested
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April 19, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/10/09)
Who had hands like that?: I remember more details
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April 23, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/15/09)
Beating up myself: Should I leave therapy? No way I’m apologizing for lying as a kid to protect myself
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May 4, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/19/09)
Secrecy vs. privacy: Maybe I won’t tell you everything
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June 1, 2008 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 3/30/09)
The sexual pleasure I experienced: Still fearful about role-playing; Remembering the shameful pleasure
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June 11, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 4/5/09)
Can you fill in the blanks?: Email to my childhood pastor
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July 4, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 4/15/09)
Did you molest me?: Letter to “X” – did you molest me?
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October 28, 2008 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/2/09)
An end to therapy – Part 1: I find T’s physical contact during our session to be healing; T brings his religious beliefs into the session again and that’s a deal-breaker for me
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February 15, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 6/27/09)
What I want in my life: Therapy homework
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March 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 7/27/09)
I do have a life: I write about my positive experiences — reading a good book, doing needlepoint, teaching piano to a gifted little boy
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April 1, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 8/2/09)
Omitting important information: The same handsome man is showing even more interest in me; I am fighting a sense of being controlled by my therapist
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April 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 8/21/09)
Blast from the past: On Facebook, I find a current photo of the man I believe molested me
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June 3, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 9/9/09)
Confused sexuality: Book study – Courage to Heal – sexuality
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June 4, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 9/10/09)
Family of origin: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – family of origin
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June 15-17, 2009 – Part 9
(Posted to the blog on 9/30/09)
Lasting effects – Part 9: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – sleep, will to live, expression of emotions
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June 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/4/09)
Finding my courage: My mom invites me to go whitewater rafting
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June 19, 2009 – pm
(Posted to the blog on 10/7/09)
Whitewater rafting: Our whitewater rafting trip was a blast!
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June 23, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/12/09)
Coping as a way to survive: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – coping as a way to survive
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July 5, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/26/09)
Fuzzy boundaries: Maritime history and ways my family tends to run roughshod over my personal boundaries
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July 9, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/30/09)
One journey with many steps: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – the stages of healing
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July 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 11/18/09)
It all makes sense: More memories surface; I’m starting to get my arms around my parents’ role in the trauma
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