The following blog posts all touch on the topic of my family and friends:
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April 8, 2008 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 2/11/09)
My spiritual journey – Part 1: Raised with very conservative Christian beliefs; Had paranormal premonitions of other people’s deaths; Went to a Christian college
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April 8, 2008 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 2/13/09)
My spiritual journey – Part 2: Worked as a pastoral intern; Became disillusioned with organized religion
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April 23, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/15/09)
Beating up myself: Should I leave therapy? No way I’m apologizing for lying as a kid to protect myself
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May 4, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 3/19/09)
Secrecy vs. privacy: Maybe I won’t tell you everything
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June 1, 2008 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 3/30/09)
The sexual pleasure I experienced: Still fearful about role-playing; Remembering the shameful pleasure
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July 19, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 4/24/09)
Maybe I’m high maintenance: My attack was unnecessarily hurtful, but my point is still valid
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August 2008
(Posted to the blog on 5/14/09)
Truth is not always absolute: I finally understand why I am so triggered by the conflict
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December 1, 2008
(Posted to the blog on 6/15/09)
Death of a pet: My beloved cat dies
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March 9, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 7/13/09)
Unable to protect myself: Looking at my priorities; Why am I defensive in therapy sessions? What triggers my emotional nosedives?
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April 11, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 8/15/09)
A glimpse of the other side: I am bothered by thoughts of wanting to escape from life after helping to save a man’s life
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April 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 8/21/09)
Blast from the past: On Facebook, I find a current photo of the man I believe molested me
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June 2, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 9/8/09)
Trust in intimacy: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – intimacy
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June 4, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 9/10/09)
Family of origin: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – family of origin
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June 15-17, 2009 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 9/13/09)
Lasting effects – Part 1: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – sexual/romantic relationships
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June 15-17, 2009 – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 9/15/09)
Lasting effects – Part 2: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – non-sexual relationships, physical touch
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June 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/4/09)
Finding my courage: My mom invites me to go whitewater rafting
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June 19, 2009 – am
(Posted to the blog on 10/6/09)
Good-bye, friend: A friend moves away
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June 23, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/12/09)
Coping as a way to survive: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – coping as a way to survive
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July 2, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/23/09)
No more compliance: I realize that I was not the non-compliant party in therapy
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July 5, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/26/09)
Fuzzy boundaries: Maritime history and ways my family tends to run roughshod over my personal boundaries
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July 8, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 10/29/09)
Keeping to myself: Book study – “Courage to Heal” – intimacy, religion, sex
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July 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 11/18/09)
It all makes sense: More memories surface; I’m starting to get my arms around my parents’ role in the trauma
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July 26, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 12/8/09)
For the sake of Alice, Jr.: Something is living in my bathroom window well
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July 31, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 12/14/09)
Trying hard to not be rude: Dealing with family members who try to push their religious beliefs on me
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VACATION!
(Posted to the blog on 12/18/09)
Vacation: Editorial note about my upcoming vacation
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August 5, 2009 – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 12/18/09)
All about community – Part 1: I see a healthy part of the legacy I received from my parents
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August 5, 2009 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 12/22/09)
All about community – Part 3: We spend a relaxing evening with our neighbors
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August 26, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/7/10)
Supportive and discreet friends: Appreciation for the support of my blogging friends
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September 6, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/11/10)
It pays to talk: I resolve a major conflict with one of my housemates
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September 7, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/12/10)
Making a joyful noise: Introduction to Sacred Harp sings
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GUEST POST
(Posted to the blog on 1/13/10)
Guest Post: Dangers of Meditation: Meditation can be beneficial for post-trauma healing
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September 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/15/10)
Male attention: Someone catches my interest
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September 19, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/18/10)
I dance pretty well for a honky: Tex-mex music, dancing and food
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September 23, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/19/10)
Keeping it aboveboard: Can I behave myself with a married man?
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September 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 1/20/10)
The million-dollar question: Why am I willing to participate in questionable relationships?
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October 18, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 2/5/10)
Holding them responsible: If my parents loved me so much, why did they abuse me?
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October 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 2/9/10)
Keeping promises: Anger about people not keeping their promises to me
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November 2, 2009 – 3am
(Posted to the blog on 2/12/10)
How innocent am I really? A memory about a time I may have acted out sexually as a child
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November 21, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 3/4/10)
One tough cookie: What does it mean to be tough? Strong?
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November 26, 2009 (9pm)
(Posted to the blog on 3/8/10)
Am I ready to look in the mirror? A book with clinical photos showing physiological effects of sexual abuse
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December 24, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 4/15/10)
Battle between flesh and willpower: Is a trip to the emergency room necessary?
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December 25, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 4/16/10)
So much for interpersonal boundaries: My sister and I face off in the middle of the night
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December 29, 2009
(Posted to the blog on 4/19/10)
A welcome contrast: Glad to be back home and in the new studio
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January 7, 2010 – 5am
(Posted to the blog on 4/30/10)
Secrets won’t be secret anymore: A dream about finally getting to tell my story
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January 10, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 5/17/10)
Heavy powerlessness: Struggling to give myself a voice and to find support in my journey
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January 18, 2010 – 11pm
(Posted to the blog on 5/31/10)
This must be the end: Maybe I’m capable of only attracting assholes
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January 19, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/1/10)
No way in hell – well, maybe: I’ll talk to my therapist only if he apologizes
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January 26, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 6/17/10)
A lull in the storm: My piano lesson business is growing
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February 5, 2010 – noon – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 6/29/10)
Unlocking the mystery – Part 1: When I get triggered, I lock up
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February 7, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/12/10)
We speak the truth: What it means to hold my parents responsible
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February 16, 2010 – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 7/21/10)
Finding my voice – Part 4: Most of all, I need to be heard
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February 20, 2010
(Posted to the blog on 7/26/10)
She’s one cool chick: My best friend forgives me for messing up
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February 27, 2010 – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 8/4/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 3: A pattern of selecting men who are not emotionally available
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February 27, 2010 – Part 4
(Posted to the blog on 8/5/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 4: Complaints about my relationships
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February 27, 2010 – Part 5
(Posted to the blog on 8/6/10)
Truth keeps flowing – Part 5: My family doesn’t support me
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March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 1
(Posted to the blog on 8/12/10)
He leads the way – Part 1: The state of my relationships
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March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 2
(Posted to the blog on 8/13/10)
He leads the way – Part 2: The role men could play in my healing
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March 4, 2010 – noon – Part 3
(Posted to the blog on 8/16/10)
He leads the way – Part 3: Stupid therapy homework assignments
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March 4, 2010 – 1:00pm
(Posted to the blog on 8/17/10)
Beginning of the end – 1:00pm: Can my best friend kick your ass?
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